The party is done! And it was a lot of fun once again. The turn out wasn't nearly what I had wanted but we still had a good 30-40 people here, mostly kids of course. By the end of Friday night though, Pat and I were about ready to collapse. I don't think I actually sat down that day one time until about 11:30 that night. 13 hours of non stop running, decorating, prep...But it felt good to be so active and the weather was great too.
All the baking, and that of the kids was a hit. I was surprised really that we had so very little left over. But all is good.
I don't think I mentioned before Friday that my second interview went well. Of course it's all about the experince now, which I believe I have plenty of for this very job. But knowing what the outcome will be will be a wait of 2-4 weeks now. **sigh**.
But I will say that I was extremely nervous at this second interview. I said as much to the group and the main guy looked at me, as I noticed my hands shaking, and asked, "Do you want a cup of coffee?" That created all sorts of laughter and comments from all of us in the room and so began the pace of the interview. It was good. All I can do now is wait and apply for other jobs. There are a couple at the school district that I'm inquiring about that are full-time so I will give them a shot too.
I'm hoping to start scanning some France pics into my computer tomorrow if I can figure out how to hook the scanner up. Then I have to figure out all the other stuff. So hopefully that will be successful. I also have to get writing my feature articles tomorrow, need money now that I've had 3 weeks to be what I consider, human again.
I have to say that life has been wonderful since I quit daycare. I feel light as a feather emotionally and mentally. After having a few weeks of being around other adults in a capacity that I only dreamed of for all these years, I have no regrets about my decision nor do I miss having the kids here. I've seen them here and there and that feeling that I felt right before I quit still hasn't completely disappeared. The one where I see them and it all floods back, the dread, the impatience, and the feeling of just not wanting to see them just yet. It's just too soon, I need a break, longer than I had thought I would need actually.
One of them came to our party the other night and it was great to see him. But something inside me has died when it comes to kids. I just want to be with my own right now, be with my hubby and my family and have some normalacy. I hate that that part of me is missing and I really hope that one day it will come back. Perhaps I just haven't had much time to 'breathe' yet, I don't know.
Anyway, just thought I would put up an update and move on to better things.
Thank you for all your well wishes, and support for my interview. Funny, I had all of your words of encouragement in my head during the interviews. Weird the impact things can have on the psyche.
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