Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Emotions on overload

Life is moving at an uncontrollable speed right now but at the same time s-o-o-o-o-o-o-o s-l-o-o-o-o-o-w!

I mentioned in an earlier post that we will be going on vacation in the near future and how we just cannot wait! Well, that hasn't changed.

But there have been some other things that have been boiling around here....aside from the heat...ah, global warming? I would like to add that one of my daycare parents did a very wonderful thing for us last week. With the threat of the massive heat wave, she purchased a window air conditioner for us. She gets them at cost with her job and refused to take any money for it. She was most concerned that her kids were in AC. I cannot blame her for that as this house is like an oven on an 80 degree day. So, we didn't have to suffer too much over the weekend...Saturday the temp gauge read a whopping 103 degrees! Thank God the air was dry. Sunday of course was less hot but much more humid and just plain miserable! But all was good in our little oven here.

Also going on, Pat's biological brother and his wife just had a little baby and she is just a gorgeous little girl. Man, her mom is of a different nationality and this little one got all of those traits...dark hair, lots of it too, BIG round dark eyes and great skin color. She is just precious.

So, Pat and I have been trying to squeeze in a time when we might be able to go and see her and the family and as of yet, the soonest is this weekend when they have a scheduled gathering...a welcome party for the wee one. So, that was going to be our day until.....

Ok, this next one has pained me dearly actually. I wrote about my good friend leaving within the next month or so. I have come to terms with that but am still sad about it. Anyway, I think it was just early last week or late the week before that I received a phone call from yet another very close friend and her boyfriend. If they read my blog they will know who I am talking about.

Anyway, they are moving away too, to Florida. I was called to ask what I thought about this idea and I had that feeling of tears surfacing. I told her that the selfish part of me wants them to just stay put, to not go, but damnit, take this sweet offer and run away with it. Go and live life and ENJOY!!!! Of course there was some pangs of bitterness because we can't sell this house but all is good.

Now this started out that they would be leaving in September. Plenty of time to gather my thoughts and my emotions and to settle with it and plan a going away party for them. Then a few days later, they were talking about possibly around the 20th of August. Ok, so step up the pace a little and the party was planned for the 12th of August. Just days after our return from our heavenly vacation. I made phone calls to others knowing now that at least I had a solid day to plan around and all was good. Ahhhh...

Skip to Sunday. He calls me and his voice sounded a little apprehensive and worried. "Um, we can't make it on the 12th, we'll be gone by then. We're planning on leaving on the 8th of August." It turns out the the 6th of August is the only time they can get the moving truck, the companies are all booked with college kids and misc. things. This is their window and they have to take it!

Overload!!!!!! No way, they can't leave that soon, that just isn't enough time, there is no weekend left between then and now for us to get together, no, this just cannot be!!!! My mind was in a panic. What am I going to do here. Of course I told him they put me in a real pickle here, that I can't let them leave without first having some sort of gathering. No way, these two mean the world to me and I can't let them leave without at least seeing them. It's going to be hard enough!

Ok, so, this Saturday. That is my only open window, the only time that I could think of and the short notice? Man, talk about scrambling to get people to come with hopes that they can make it. Well, not that there'll be many people... One very important group of people will be unable to attend and that truly saddens me. They too have a connection with these two friends. It will be hard without them here as I know they wanted to say good-bye.

So, we have a Welcome home party to attend during the day Saturday and then get home late afternoon and prepare to have a going away party. I'm already tired! Geez, oh and not to mention getting ready for our trip. But that is last on my list it seems.

I am not complaining at all. Things are coming together really well, people wanting to bring this or that, volleyball, horseshoes, and lots of love and fun for two very special people. Well, actually 3 but there is a reason for this faux pas, I just couldn't leave one of them out....they will understand but when they leave, I will be sure to correct it.

Perhaps it's best the way our friends are leaving, quick and quiet. Only because the amount of time planning all these other distractions takes away from the sorrow that will surface when we actually have to say good-bye. Our oldest daughter has cried a few times over this latest. She loves these two very deeply, like brother and sister. She is going to have a hard time with this one and frankly, so am I but I have vowed to stay strong and dry eyed. Thanks to technology, there is the internet and cell phones but who are Pat and I going to go have beer with and play darts with? WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!! (hehe, yeah, that's all we love you for)

Anyway, with all this crap with my supposed 'family' and now this with our very dear friends, the emotional roller coaster has been out of control. Things will settle down, I know, but until that time, I will sit in my 'car' and just go along for the ride.

Love you guys!!!! More than you know.........

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