Tidbits

Well, I had promised an update on our daughters leg so here it is.

She had her MRI last Thursday and they found nothing...what is it with this girl. One of my friends called her our anomoly (sp) and I cannot think of a better word. Her doc was quite surprised with those results as were Pat and I.

She is still in quite a bit of pain and will need to go see an orthopedic surgeon in a couple weeks to get yet another opinion on what it could be. Perhaps it's just a bad sprain or the doc suggested a bruised bone? Who knows but getting that news was like someone bursting a HUGE stress bubble in my chest! I breathed a huge sigh of relief when the nurse told me. So all is good with her. She will still not be able to play soccer which is really sad for her but if only she knew how very lucky she is.

The ugly rumor? Well, I have spoken with my mom and she is very short with me speaking to me in an accusing voice. But I have decided that I am not going to mention it until it grows to be even worse. I actually had a very hard time talking to my mom. I spoke with my father a couple of days ago and he has been privvy to some of the things that have been going on. But only because I have told him. I was surprised to hear him say that my mom tells him that I never contact them. This of course is another lie, I speak to my mom every other week just to check in if not every week. I got that same story from another family member, that I never call my folks. I told my dad that he best talk to mom about this because it's a flat out lie and at this point if he gets down on her and angry with her I think it's due time. I'm tired of hiding things from him.

Needless to say, I got off the phone with my dad very unhappy wondering why my mom would try to make me out to look like this. I just don't get why she would do that? I haven't told my father the latest because I know that the roof will more than likely blow off. If he knew what this new one was I just don't know what would happen. I mean really, I'm already knee deep in shit with my family and I'm not sure why so what would keep me from making matters worse? My mom has always believed that my father doesn't need to know what goes on between us siblings however, I have broken that silence as far as things go with me. He is my dad and if I want to talk to him I will. He deserves a chance to be my father and damnit, I'll give it to him!

Sorry, as I said last week, the rumors get uglier and uglier and more and more hurtful. The biggest problem is is I have 4 sisters and there isn't ONE that I can confide in. This has been weighing quite heavy on me over the last few days. I know those who are making up these things are just waiting for a reaction from me but I won't give them one this time. As I said, if the rumor grows, I will talk to my dad about it. I know that he knows that I'm hurting and that he knows that I am not a bad person. Most importantly, I know that he loves me.

In my heart, that is what matters most!