Friday, November 18, 2005

Take nothing for granted...

I email a few people here and there and we talk about various things that have occurred in our lives. I love to hear the bizarre things that have occurred with others because then I don't feel so hexed, so plagued with just plain s*** luck. But I do love to hear stories as well, not just so I can feel better but because some people really have a lot in common while others, well, bless them, have had things happen to them that one would never even imagine. I am a naturally curious person so you have a story? Please spill!!!!

Pat and I have been through a lot of hard times together, a lot of off the wall things have occurred, a lot of things that some must actually find very hard to believe when I think about it. I dont' know if most people just don't talk about it or if Pat and I just simply seem to find trouble. I tend to take the pessimistic road with that one a believe that we just walk into trouble at every turn.

Whichever it is, I do know that for a couple of people who married young, who are now in their mid-thirties with 4 children, we have endured the life of someone much older in my opinion. We have been told that we are wise beyond our years by many. That comment itself really makes me sad sometimes just because I am such a kid sometimes. And there are those times that I just don't want to be wise from experiences that occurred in our early years. But too late for that now.

Perhaps that is just what is involved in most relationships, all that endurance just to wake up the next day or perhaps not. I wouldn't know really, not many people can talk about their life due to fear or the thought that they might reveal something horrible, or that they think that they simply cannot tell a good story or maybe they are just private. Or they just really don't want to relive painful memories. I'm sure there are a million reasons. But life is one of the most interesting things out there. Everyone has an interesting life, some plagued with bad luck, some riddled with endless amounts of good luck, there are just too many to list.

I just read about the family that bought $40 worth of lottery tickets and won $340 million dollars. Funny thing is that they had to struggle long and hard before this wonderful fate was handed to them. Sick children, financial woes, work problems. No, I'm not getting my hopes up but gosh wouldn't that be a wonderful reward for all of our pain and suffering over the years.

At this point though our reward is simply having the friends that we do have who believe in us, hell, who believe us period, our four very beautiful and healthy children, Pat and I have eachother through it all and have learned to deal, living in one of the most beautiful places in Minnesota, having a home, and deer, turkey, squirrel, and even little mice cross our paths almost daily. All those things that some take for granted. When you've nearly lost all of the aforementioned, you learn how quickly and easily things can change and how quickly you can lose.

Maybe I am just being sensitive when I say that our hardships are hard for some to believe because there are times when I won't tell a story because I myself just cannot believe the twists of fate that we have encountered let alone trying to share it with others.

For the record, it is all true, it is all real, it is all fact...except for maybe some action word or descriptive word, that might make the story more exciting, may be added for interest's sake but all is true and from the heart.

I am working my way up to entering my next post about mine and the girls arrival into Paris, Charles De Gaulle International Airport. It's coming but I need time to situate into this new blog.

7 comments:

Bon & Mal Mott said...

What you say, louie, is just part of growing up (we don't know if you've seen our philosophy before, so here it is: you must grow old but you need not grow up.) As for experiences, no, you're not alone at all. There are people who suffer every day, it's just that we never hear about them. But we're sure you know that. When one is in one's 30's, one experiences life at its most full and confusing. That's just the way it it, considering all that one must deal with. One of the most pleasant surprises of aging is the serenity that can come with it. One must work hard to earn that serenity, that's all.
Bon & Mal

Kelly said...

I feel the same way (a lot! rofl) maybe it's just the whole "misery loves company thing"? I cant' wait to hear about Paris.

Louie said...

Thanks for stopping by Kelly. I have been so rapt in my story of France that I haven't been to visit many journals but do have you bookmarked.

It is really funny how often I have heard that phrase 'misery loves company' in the last couple of weeks. I do agree but my misery is mine for the most part. Finding company just turns me into a negative, gossipy, woman. Hate that....LOL

Louie said...

No worries Caleb, just like a chick flick I have a chick blog....emotions, blathering,and the occasional griping about things that irritate me.

Louie said...

My story actually begins at the age of 3 but that is all very disturbing.

Thanks for visiting Gaberael. But I will probably scare you away with what I have to say.

$340 is an awful lot but once the government takes 1/2 of it for taxes that would leave just enough for my 4 kids and college and a trust for each, some for us to buy ourselve a warmer home and furniture without holes and springs sticking out, vehicles that don't break down or where the thermostat doesn't take a dump every winter. And it would allow us to purchase appliances that don't almost blow up when we try to preheat them, a furnace that doesn't break down on a -30 below day in the middle of winter, and a refrigerator that would keep our food cold and our milk from souring every other day. I don't know that we would have much left to share. Selfish, probably but my family comes first, mine and hubbys future comes first. I have a bitter outlook on this world and some of the people in it. I have been stepped on by numerous people, have shared and cared plenty to see how many out there do take advantage. Perhaps if I found some out there who were honest hard working people who could never seem to catch a break, like hubby and myself, well I would help them out if need be. But I am not very trusting, and would have to know them personally.Does that make me a bad person?

Anonymous said...

I have long thought that falling into a mountain of cash in the form of a lottery win, could be one of the worse things that could happen to an individual or a family.

After the riches arrive, what is the purpose...the point of getting out of bed?

I would like to clear my debts as much as the next person, but to never have to consider my actions as they relate to my financial survival for all time, I would be little more than a pointless blob of carbon.

In the end, I like the challenges that life throws at me.

To live without them, seems like a sort of death.

I dont want to die that way.

I suppose that is why I dont play the lotto...I'm afraid that I just might win.

Louie said...

Hey Tom! Good to see ya. Yeah, I can understand your logic there but really? I am tired of what life has thrown us, a break would be good. Although I don't think that I would stop working. I have been on hiatus for awhile here and there and find myself wallowing in my own pity party. Depression. boredom. Humans were just not meant to sit on their butts and do nothing but I bet if you could by yourself a big cruiser and sail the seven seas you might just reconsider. LOL