I've been sitting here at my computer catching up on some of my more favorite journals/blogs and it really has been a long time since I've done that. Don't have much to say these days....surpisingly. Must be the weather taking it's toll on all the happy thoughts or something.
It's truly amazing the variety that is wrapped up in the blogosphere and j-land. So much talent, so many emotions, so many different life experiences, and so many opinions.
For myself, well, I ain't added much at all lately. I believe that I am experiencing the old 'cabin fever' syndrome these days. Sunlight has been scarce and frankly, I just hate being cooped up in our house for so long. What I wouldn't give for some green grass and leaves on the trees. Crickets at night and frogs croaking like crazy out our deck door, afternoon hikes or lying out on my hammock on the deck reading some rag mag or something. Just some fresh air would be nice really.
Those couple of weeks that we did have some warmer weather were most definately heaven sent and I soaked up as much of that warmth from the sun as I could get. Now it's freezing cold out again and I am just in a funk. Like I just want to crawl into a cave and hibernate like a bear. Man, those animals do things right! It sure would beat buying a winter home in some warm climate now wouldn't it!
A couple of the sites that I visited tonight had some sad enteries, some that really make me wonder if it isn't just the weather that is killing our spirits sometimes. I dream of the ocean at night sometimes or of some tropical setting and when I wake to the white ground and bitter cold temperatures, my euphoric mood fizzles out as quickly as my memory spits out that wonderful dream. And so goes the rest of my day, disappointed, sad, wanting and wishing.
Shaking that mood is on some days easier than others. Pat thinks that I'm in this mood because we just spent a ton of money on things that any other human would be overjoyed about. I suppose it doesn't help that I'm sick AGAIN and that our daughter has her appointment in a couple of days, that has not been making things much easier.
When I get like this, I always tell people I'm having an 'Eeyore Day'. I just love that donkey, he alone can raise my spirits simply because he can be so glum yet so adorable all at the same time. Just writing about him makes me smile.
We got our new carpet today. All I keep saying is, 'It looks weird.' I think that I'm in shock or something, like it just isn't real? Life has been good to us since Pat got this job of his. Not something that him and I are used to. We've been kicked around, stomped on and spit on and left to rot more often than not. Perhaps that is what my mood is all about. All these years we have just had such s*** luck that now that things are turning in a whole new direction I just don't know how to deal with it. I'm always expecting that kick in the stomach at any moment.
Tomorrow we get our furniture, one would think that as a female alone I would be bouncing off the walls with glee but, nope. Sure, I'm excited and happy that we will finally have some eye appealing-ness to our home but really, furniture is just furniture, carpet is just carpet, material things is all they are. They don't make a person really, just another headache in which will be caused from keeping the dogs and cats from destroying it all, as well as the kids. HoHum....oh, but really, I do so love my new refrigerator, now THAT is worthy of a few flutters of excitement.
I hope that all who are having Eeyore Daze will know that I am thinking about them, sending them cyber hugs and wishing them happier days.
.....'this too shall pass'......
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